Birthday + over with = Great Success.

fhfjhjkdhkjlhdklh 24 sucks

I have realized, there are alot of qualities i want in a woman over the past couple of years.

One of them i am sure of , is that she has to come to a stripclub with me.

=D

location: home mood: elated music: QOTSA

Down the street you can hear her scream
"you're a disgrace"
As she slams the door in his drunken face,
And now he stands outside and all the neighbours start to gossip and drool.

He cries "Oh girl, you must be mad,
What happened to the sweet love you and me had?"
Against the door he leans and starts a scene,
And his tears fall and burn the garden green.

And so castles made of sand,
fall in the sea,
eventually.

location: home mood: exhausted

In retrospect, it just hurts me alot to see.
i feel no pride for my work.

were fucked.
moneywise, we are screwwed.

Moms double surgery is gonna cost us 24 K

suprise suprise

guess where its coming from?

my college fund.

Plans i had to goto NY and audition for AADA?

F U C K E D.

I cant go to New York now, not just because the money, i just cant. Now i have to look after my grandad and my mom. So from here on out my future consists of Charleston. According to the family. Thats what im good for. Work and money.

So all the plans i had for May are fucked.
All my money is going to the family.
Im going to be stuck here for life.
Might as well get in good with a franchise resturaunt.

Fuck my life.

Fuck it hard





i quit giving a shit as of right now.

location: Home mood: awake music: none

fuck today.

fired from Kaifu.

stiffed on a 180 buck bill.

stiffed AGAIN on 150 buck bill.


fuck the shit out of today.

kinda wanted to have angry sex after that shit.
thats the only way i can get it out.

fuck drinking the anger out, and fuck smoking it away.

i can do either of those, of sex it up, angry style.

since thats not happening, im not smoking, and im not drinking.



going to bed angry and dissapointed.

location: home. mood: angry

Mmmmmmmmmmmm.

a chicken biscuit.

<3

Im kinda super excited to goto work today.
Im gonna goto the Cap Market, buy some cool shit to work with,
then im gonna goto work, and make some crazy ass sushi.

productive day.

Im drunk.
And right now Im so in love with you.
And I dont want to think too much about what we should or shouldnt do.
Lay my hands on heaven and the sun and the moon and the stars.
While the devil wants to fuck me in the back of his car.

Nothing quite like the feel of something new.
Maybe Im all messed up.
Maybe Im all messed up.
Maybe Im all messed up in you.
Maybe Im all messed up.
Maybe Im all messed up.
Maybe Im all messed up.
Maybe Im all messed up in you.
Maybe Im all messed up.
This is the only time I really feel alive.
This is the only time I really feel alive.

I swear.
I just found everything I need.
The sweat in your eyes the blood in your veins are listening to me.
Well I want to drink it up and swim in it until I drown.
My moral standing is lying down.

Nothing quite like the feel of something new.
Maybe Im all messed up.
Maybe Im all messed up.
Maybe Im all messed up in you.
Maybe Im all messed up.
Maybe Im all messed up.
Maybe Im all messed up.
Maybe Im all messed up in you.
Maybe Im all messed up.
This is the only time I really feel alive.
This is the only time I really feel alive.

location: Jupiter mood: relaxed music: NIN Only Time

4:21am. Walkin out my backdoor. This is gonna be....somethin. =o

I bet i do.

We get it! You are fucking awesome! You are so incredibly fucking cooooool it is UNREAL.
Now shut the fuck up, and try to be a little humble,
Oh, and stop talking shit about stuff thats none of you're business anyway.


Or i will break you're nose.
Seriously. I will.

mood: pissed off

I look out the window. I see a rainy day. cold and windy. cold. so windy,

You look out, you see colors swiring and birds building nests before a storm, build. build.

I wake up, i think another day, another dollar. work my friend work. work.

You see new beginnings, a 6am sunrise and joy, joy, joy.

Another day, another life.

Another time, another place.

We are a collection of one another whether in time , or space.

You give what you take and you are who you were.

Believe this and, ultimatley we are as much ourselves as we are everyone who has ever been.

Now close you're eyes, and say hello.

I'e missed you so much.

location: mind music: you

Nine Inch Nails, Columbus Ohio November 17 Setlist

999,999
1,000,000
letting you
discipline
march of the pigs
head down
the frail
reptile
closer
gave up
the warning
vessel
5 ghosts I
17 ghosts II
19 ghosts III
piggy [ghost]
the greater good
pinion
wish
terrible lie
survivalism
the big come down
31 ghosts IV
only
the hand that feeds
head like a hole

echoplex
god given
the good soldier
hurt
in this twilight

I survived being fucking robbed this week, totally trashing my hand, working through it every day, fucking my foot up during a show on friday, getting dipshit sideways jailtime drunk on saturday for Stanleys birthday, Driving and getting lost, wierd fish, moshpits, fists, flying elbows, falling waterbottles, drunk assholes, shitty snowstorms that a Yeti would avoid and fatigue.

Only thing that would have made this week complete was getting laid. That would have been the perverbial "cherry on top"

I'll give it a B-

( i need you're discipline. )

location: home. mood: mellow

Im really pretty fucking mad right now.

nothing is working in my favor as of late.

I kinda just wanna have some semi-meaningless sex right now and try to forget about all this bullshit.

so i guess i should update this shit.

Wnt to DC for Courtneys birthday. Went crazy nuts. Saw everything in the world. Had some good times. Rode the train and saw some nice parts of WV. came home.

Got robbed last night / broke fingers and got trashed.

Good times.

i cant think of anything else.

mood: aggravated